This month’s edition is dedicated to those who struggle with Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, or any other days of the year due to the loss of a loved one, estrangement, or end of a relationship.
We have now entered into the month of May. I’m not gonna front, I’ve been dreading this month’s arrival. After all, this is the month last year is when my life changed forever. Last year, I spent Mother’s Day weekend at my mom’s bedside as she laid in the ICU. She transitioned from life on Earth just a week later. This will be my first Mother’s Day without her.
When I awoke on May 1, I had multiple “missing Mommy moments.” Afterwards I sat down and began to journal. Following are things that the Lord deposited into my spirit after I poured my heart out to Him. He specifically gave me three things to keep in mind and be grateful for even as I go through this particular season. As you read, you too will benefit from my conversation with God.
My right mind – Although there have been some very difficult days when I didn’t think I could deal or make it, I still have my right mind. Through up and down days, my mental stability has remained in tact. For this I am thankful!
Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Isaiah 26:3
Precious memories – I learned so much from my mother, by both word and example. This is the woman who taught me how to have a little talk with Jesus (pray). She taught me how to live a holy, balanced life. She taught me more than I have time to write. I wore a big white hat to a tea last month. As I looked at the picture, I realized that I also get part of my style from my mother. She loved a nice hat, cute dress and heels. Although I can’t find those old photo albums, I have visuals of her dressed up in my head. I am my mother’s child! For this I am thankful!
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:8
Peace – God has granted me peace, even on the saddest of days, peace has been present. I thank the Lord for 350 days of peace. I know that I was a good daughter and caregiver to Cindy Mo. There are no regrets. For this I am thankful! Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. John 14:27
Overall, I am grateful. While I miss my mom more than words can describe, I know she is at peace; therefore I’m at peace, even in the midst of tears. Ultimately I know that the Lord is keeping me, and I will not be consumed.
It is of the LORD’S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. Lamentations 3:22
We are going to be alright!
The memories of Mother Cindy are forever embedded in our hearts and spirits. She always supported us young preachers and gave so many of us our initial foundational ministry opportunities. Thank you for posting the beautiful picture. That is exactly how I choose to remember her … always sporting a grand hat. To GOD be all the Glory.
Tera what a great read! Thanks for sharing!
Soror, this a beautiful message. I loss my Mom as well over ten years ago and it is just like yesterday. I too am at peace. May God continue to bless and use you for his kingdom.